Bitter-sweet memories.

We have all made BIG, BIG blunders in life. You are not a normal teenager if you haven't made blunders at some point or the other. But all that seems, just yesterday. Today, I'm a senior, who's on her way to finish this HUGE chapter of the Fat Ass book called "Life" and is about to go to the next one. 

When I look back at this, so many memories come back. It's hard to tell which is the bad one and which is the good one because standing here and looking back, it ALL seems so worth it.All those fights. And no I really mean fights, not those bitchy 'lil kiss-and-make-up-stories . . . I quite mean the part where you don't want to see each other's face again, that you'd "ACTUALLY" skip school just so that you don't see it. And yet end up going and messing around with them. And all the random talks and deciding who's who, which guy is out of bound, which guy is not worth any bounds, and stepping all over that line of bound to see what if the out-of-bound works out. Standing in front of the canteen and asking for money. Finding that one friend, who you can always bully, with them knowing you'd never harm them. And Finding that one friend who you'd ALWAYS want to hurt, but won't because you love them.

Being a Senior is quite amazing. Because, right now is the time we all want to make all of the mistakes and want somebody else to correct it for us. But when they do we want to tell them, "Back off, it's my life, and I know my highway directions pretty good". Even funnier, we know we're still screwing up. But this is the most innocent and bold time to fall, crumble, and to get back up. 'Cause this is the time, when mistakes aren't just mistakes, they are a lesson. 

One aspect of being senior that NEVER fails to show it's importance is THE Love. See you can always fall in love up above or down below of the "SENIOR" tag, but quite NOTHING like the High School Love.Quite nothing like loving someone now, and knowing it will last forever. Maybe it wont, but trust me it always leaves a very pleasant memory. Plus the statistic shows, most of the couple that end up being together forever, start here. Right now we're so up on our hormones, that nothing seems wrong, all the wrongs can be corrected, and all that needs to be wronged can be ignored. Who you love now, will always leave an impression in you life and how you shape it. Love now, and live forever. 

Good Memories, aren't they? But sadly, Memories, which means separation is on it's way. Sucks to say it, but in few more months, we will all move on. Some will stay connected, some will try to, others like most of us will move on. And it sucks the most when that happens. But it IS something that will. Down the line, we won't remember each other's face, name, number and we wouldn't care. That will be the time we'll look back and smile at these memories and say, oh that guy, yeah he rejected me, that was funny. Or oh yeah that guy, i screwed his case, and I slapped him, that was funny. Trust me that guy will also laugh about getting slapped.

So as of now, live these last few days as much as you can. Cause they won't last forever. Make these bitter-sweet memories. Make life. Cause someday, this will all be  gone. No more secretly meeting up your boyfriend/girlfriend, and not telling your parents your grades, and no more hiding behind an excuse and expect everything to turn up right. 

Don't wait for it to happen, let it. :)